she loves to read because it slaps her good at times. today, she is reminded that pain should never last forever because who the hell wants to get drenched in pain for so long. she is reminded that putting hopes should never go wrong because that way at least you have something you can hold on to if the tides get too high. but ultimately she is reminded that she wants to keep her best friend in her heart, for now and ever, just because it is where he belongs.

"But remember that the pain of parting from friends will be felt by everybody at times, whatever be their education or state. Know your own happiness. You want nothing but patience; or give it a more fascinating name: call it hope." -- Jane Austen, Sense and Sensibility

she forgets how it felt like to experience the memorable, to be drowned in longing, to give willing devotion, to be needed, to be the one that mattered.. it is their last year together, and all she is worrying about is to have no good memories about him to miss.